"I've always been the Mistress & now it's time for Me to take the lead role!" -Ms. Monday Jones
SONG: "Someday" by Julia Jacklin (Listen HERE)
Please don't judge Me for the "Queens" t-shirt I am wearing in the photo set in this blog. It was the photographers request and that is Me caught in action, working as a model. Something I've been doing since I was 13 years old. Funny, I recall My middle school classroom laughing at Me when I announced I was going to go into modeling and acting.
Kids are mean. So, no need to be mean and judge My shirt. I was helping My photographer friend create a shoutout to QUEENS. Someone has to represent. AND I'm sure there's a fan or two of Mine that are smiling right now because I'm representing.
SONG: "Back to Black" by Amy Winehouse (Listen HERE)
I'm thinking about signing My 13 year old and I up for a basic handgun skills development class at the Public Safety Training Center (Website HERE). Yes, I said handgun. I grew up with guns as part of the hunter-gather lifestyle My parents raised Me in. A gun is something new for My 13 year old and I think education is a great way introduce them.
I've been wanting a gun in My possession for some time now. At one point in My early 20's while living in downtown Seattle, Washington, I did have a hand gun. A few guns. However, I gave them up to My parents when I realized My depression was too bad to trust Myself to be a responsible gun owner.
This shouldn't be a surprise to My readers. I have stated to many times throughout My writing of suicidal thoughts, seasonal depression and mental health issues. I know I'm not alone. I mean fuck, humans live with the chronic dysfunction of humantitus. AND I too suffer from being human. I am just doing the best I can from A to Z on this journey of life.
SONG: "Love & Hate" by Michael Kiwanuka (Listen HERE)
Ups and downs are real AND really happen. We all experience them. I know that I personally strive to get My ups and downs few and far between. I think when I was younger I fed off My manic depressive phases. It was as if, I was a real artist or some shit story I told Myself. As I enter middle age, I value a stable emotional state.
SONG: "Addicted" by Ben L'Oncle Soul (Listen HERE)
So, depending on what news channel you subscribe to, determines if the covid pandemic is still relevant. I personal feel like this is ALL fucked up. No, I'm not Republican or a Libertarian. I'm just pointing out a fucked up fact of how divided this country is. I'm sure I don't need to stat the obvious, but I did.
Now, I can't believe I'm having to address this 3 years later but here I go. Vaccines are a personal choice. By no means, am I interested in examining your health records, nor offering Mine for interpretation. I will leave that for My doctors, since they are the professionals.
Stop normalizing "Are you vaccinated?" Regardless on how someone answers that question, there are consequence. If they say no, there's judgment, shame, prejudice etc. And if they say yes, there's judgment, shame, prejudice etc. You get how this is only tearing people apart. I know I don't I feel united.
What this really comes down to is, Please JUST follow the golden rule. If you are sick and/or under the weather, stay home and reschedule yourself according. If you are immunocompromised, make choices that are for you and you only. There is no need to project your control, fear and/or concern on to the collective. The thing is, regardless of vac status, people are and will still get sick.
SONG: "Downers" by Greentea Peng (Listen HERE)
MOVING ON!
I'm slowly getting Myself in the routine of lifting weights weekly. It's taken a minute to adjust to the new schedule and I'm finding it hard to Self motivate. I decided to returned to My personal trainer. I'm also thinking about joining a nutrition support group. Which I think will be a good add to My health regiment.
My personal trainer is Katie King (View HERE)
SONG: "Let's Talk About Sex" by Salt-N-Pepa (Listen HERE)
Staying consistent on My workouts is helpful to keep My body healthy for dancing. Pole dancing is extremely hard on the shoulders and knees. I really want to add yoga into the mix. You know, to help with flexibility and core strength. So, maybe next month I'll hunt for a yoga studio.
Or maybe not. To be real here, there's a lot on My plate right now. As much as I want to add more to My schedule, I'm sure many of My plans and/or ideas are going to take a back burner. My focus needs to be My kids, My furry babies and My sanity. Me adding MORE is a joke. If anything, I'm going to add pole dancing classes because that skill will build up My dancer persona and bring Me in more money in the long run.
Some of the Pole Dancing Studios I'm looking at in Portland Oregon are:
*Of course there's at least a dozen pole studios I did not mention here. I mean, come on this is Portland. The strip club capitol of the United States of America.
SONG: "Independent Women, Pt. 1" by Destiny's Child (Listen HERE)
Dance culture is a thing. And I'm being exposed to so much. The discrimination is real; ageism, sizeism, racism etc. As stated in blog post: A Dating Mistress: Fall '22 Part 2 (Read HERE) I had plans to tryout at a few other clubs here in Portland. Well yeah, they didn't even look at Me because of My age. UGH!
I did end up tryout at Magic Tavern and X Exotic. I even add Myself to the schedule at Magic Tavern. However, after a weekday mid-shift I realized it wasn't quite the right club for Me. The lack of security made Me rather nervous.
Plus, the customers kept asking for extras. No judgement, really. It just didn't feel like a safe work environment. AND I find Myself getting super exhausted with the continuous education on consent. Serious, some people...
One thing I really enjoy about The Sandy Jug is, it's owned and operated by strippers in the Portland community. They are also a no touch club. Which I really appreciate. Anyways, I'll be able to see Me dance at the Jug on a regular. For now.
SONG: "Mr. Wendal" by Arrested Development (Listen HERE)
In the last few blog entries I've mentioned I haven't been dealing with My usually winter blues. Then it snowed in Portland. Then I remembered, I hate snow. Okay, that's a little dramatic.
I don't hate snow. I just don't want to live in it. I want to choose when I want to visit it. When I learned what "snow birding" was at the age of 6, it made since.
Thank goodness My teenage feels similar about the snow and we are looking into moving to warmer weather before next winter. Neither one of us want to live in the cold wet Northwest winters anymore.
Summers are another story and we plan to keep the townhouse in Portland BUT making a new location the home base. Of course, this is exciting and a bit overwhelming to digest.
As the weather in Portland and well New York City remain extra chilly, I cuddle down on My couch with My puppies Po Po Tiny and Bruce. We'll hibernate with a winter nap. AND I'll be dreaming of the next life. You know, planting My seeds for a spring blooming.
Oh wait! Before signing off, I wanted to share with you all, that My Italian boi friend is back. More on that to come.
Ciao Ciao Ciao...
SONG: "Can I Kick It?" by A Tribe Called Quest (Listen HERE)
BOOK: When Someone You Love is Kinky by Dossie Easton (View HERE)
SONG: "Wicked Game" by Chris Isaak (Listen HERE)
TEDTALK: Why Having Fun Is the Secret to a Healthier Life by Catherine Price (Watch HERE)
YOUTUBE: Ego Identity & The Path To Inner Peace by Eckhart Tolle (View HERE)
ARTICLE: Psychic Abilities 101: A Beginner’s Guide to your Clairs (View HERE)
Photos done in Summer 2022 by Mark Maker Production (Instagram HERE)